It's my fourth day at work haha
It's an admin job in an insurance company, 10 minutes walk from Boon Keng station.
I feel that it's time for me to work, to start moving my "wheels" because they were rusty once. Thank God they've been "oiled" again. But what's the big deal, if I'm not gonna move them anyway?
Anyway, I've just found out lately how lazy and irresponsible I can become or rather am.
Work starts at 8 30am means I have to wake up at 6am plus.
Came home late at night from grandma's birthday dinner yesterday haha.. so I really really had a tough time waking up this morning, didn't feel like going to work man.
So after I was disturbed by the alarm there was a battle going on in my head on whether should I go to work or not until a "voice" interupted:
'Make up your mind NOW!'
Boi I was awakened right away, I felt convicted and immediately my integrity(conscience) being questioned.
It's amazing how powerful a thought.. so delicate yet intangible could manifest itself.. when I set my mind on how I was feeling then(the fatigue).. it's almost effortless to come up with lots of excuses on why I can't, which means I could've lied to my colleagues (yuo wouldn't want to tell them you couldn't turn up because you were just pure tired right)
Anyway, the same pattern happened when I start to think of what's right. Immediately it exposed what would become of me if I had given in to the spirit of complacency. It'll probably make me an undiscipline, irresponsible, unreliable person. No I don't want to be deceived, especially if that's the effect of just a mere switch of thought. I don't want to be a person like that man.
Joyce Meyer once said that "We can feel not right but still do what's right"
if only we set our minds fully on what's good and not at all on what corrupts. It always appears to be just a tiny thought.. but this is all it takes for it to instantly manifest and you could wake up one day realising how surprisingly, unknowingly it has cost you.
Indeed.. "make up your mind NOW!". A command. This or that. Yes or no. Obey or not.
Spirit of complacency and that of mediocrity is a deceiving attitude that tells you it's okay, it's just a thought, it's okay it's just a part-time job dont type a big fuzz about it. It sounds great but now we know it's not choosing what sounds good/"what we wanna hear" but what is good. One of Robert kiyosaki's audio CD package is titled: 'You Can Choose To Be Rich' (haha ok abit not-so-link)
Similarly, I was told by Someone that we can CHOOSE to do what's right.
I feel this is one of the ways we overcome evil by good.. by choosing to think of what's good and pleasant instead of the former despite our emotions. It requires discipline ofcourse, there's no need for it if dealing with emotions is easy ahah.. I was really really sianz until that voice interceded for good.. what powerful words hmm..
What's good always prevails in the end.. what's good is victorious in nature. Yay!
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Sianz.. haven't seen 8WF people for weeks le.. I miss you all la LOLLabels: attitude, complacency, discipline, faith, hope, mindset, work
---------------------------------------------------------- 9:55 PM, peace =)
A woman was waiting at an airport one night, with several long hours before her flight. She hunted for a book in the airport shop, bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop.
She was so engrossed in her book, but happened to see, that the man beside her, as bold as could be grabbed a cookie or two from the bag between, which she tried to ignore, to avoid a scene.
She read, munched cookies, and watch the clock, as the gutsy 'cookie thief' diminished her stock. She was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by, thinking 'If I wasn't so nice I'd blacken his eye!'
With each cookie she took, he took one too. When only one was left, she wondered what he'd do. With a smile on his face and a nervous laugh, he took the last cookie and broke it in half.
He offered her half, as he ate the other. She snatched it from him and thought, 'Oh brother, this guy has some nerve, and he's also rude. Why, he didn't even show any gratitude?!'
She had never known when she had been so galled, and sighed with a relief when her flight was called.
She gathered her belongings in a haste and headed for the gate, refusing to look back at the 'thieving ingrate'. She boarded the plane and sank in her seat, then sought her book, which was almost complete.
As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise: There was her bag of cookies in front of her eyes!
'If mine are here,' she moaned with despair, 'then the others were his and he tried to share!' Too late to apologise, she realised with grief, that she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief!
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Above is extracted from Phil Pringle's 'Keys To Financial Excellence'
I was amazed by the man's generosity the first time I read the story. But something else really came alive in me when I read it again the second time. Here's what: Right before the lady found out (when the cookies "belong" to her), she did in fact gave them away when she assumedly said "If I wasn't so nice...". Now we can say both gave their cookies away. Here comes the question: Who is the generous one?
The purpose of this entry revolves around the word, 'GIVING', and the above story illustrates 2 very different approaches on the same subject.
"Giving is an attitude before it is an action. If we have this attitude, we don't stop to calculate the cost to ourselves when a need presents itself. If we have the resources, then we find ourselves giving."
I have italicised 2 phrases which shows the stinky attitude of the lady when she was sharing. The contrast between the 2 is more apparent now isn't it? This was what blew me away. Well we can't really blame her for being mad. In fact I think I might blow myself up so much that when I let it out.. I'll blow him off the bench haha. But just look at how the man react to the situation.. both of them were in the exact same shoes!! But the man was cheerful throughout despite of the lady's unusual rudeness. It wasn't at all pleasant for the lady -who at that point thought the man was incredibly rude.
Anyway, giving is an attitude.
You are not generous if you've given it away and in your heart say, 'If I wasn't that generous, I/you would have...'
You are not forgiving if you have forgiven and in your heart say, 'If I wasn't so merciful, I/you would have...'
You are not humble if you were practicing humility in a given situation and in your heart say, 'If I wasn't that modest, I would have...' (boast about it?)
Giving is an attitude! (it's repeated I know)
Giving is forgoing/letting go (of the 'If I wasn't so...' attitude).
Giving and receiving are 2 different words of different meanings (there's no such word as "Gi-ceiving").
Having an attitude of giving means in any given situation where there's a need, you'll think of ways to meet them with whatever resources you have with you. Yep, whatever you have. It doesn't have to be money, or something valuable. It could be a talent you're gifted in that you can use to serve, words of wisdom, time, or a helping hand, a listening ear, your joy, whatever it might be! could even be a last piece of an ordinary cookie left in the bag.
Start developing the attitude of giving, it brings joy. Giving is more enjoyable than receiving. When you have something that you can give and contribute don't you feel fulfilling, that you are capable enough to be a giver than someone who only receives from others? Giving people are joyful people. Just like the "cookie thief".Labels: attitude, books, generosity, giving, mindset, Phil Pringle
---------------------------------------------------------- 12:21 AM, peace =)
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." - 1 Cor 13:4-7Labels: love
---------------------------------------------------------- 3:55 PM, peace =)
I sing a love song to You Lord
Every day, every night
Tell of Your goodness and mercy
Tell the world how You rescued me
Picked me up from sin and shame
Your breath gives me new life
Where can i go from Your presence
Under your wings I take refuge
Your Spirit lives within my heart
I know, we'll never be apart
Chorus
Every day I draw closer to You Lord
I long to see Your face
And hide in Your embrace
All my life, dwelling in Your holy place
My heart O Lord You've changed
I'll never be the same
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It's been so long since I last blog.. shall make it a point to blog at least once a week huh..
Well above is lyrics of a beautiful song, 'Refuge'.
Look to the side and play it.. it's there.
Most of the songs are cut off at the last few seconds which means you might end up feeling pretty sian (haha at least for me).
Anyway those are really nice praise and worship songs.. there's still so much MORE haha!
Great events have just passed.. yep the greatest of all would be EMERGE conference 2007!! (will put up pictures soon)
Peace and joy in the Lord is more than what words could possibly describe.. never felt like this before.
It really is time for me to learn how to withdraw myself from all kinds of anxieties and focus unto the omni-potent Father who's always faithful.
"He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."
- Psalm 91:4
Hallelujah!Labels: emerge, peace and joy
---------------------------------------------------------- 3:44 AM, peace =)
JINLONG - Jay eL . 77 =)